Not good enough

At the end of the day, I'm really just not enough either.

I don't know what to do when he's crying and upset like that. I don't know what to say. I don't want to make things worse. But I can't make things better either. 

Why would he feel this way? Why does he not want to live? Why, why, why?

I'm sleepy. 

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